so this weekend i did absolutely nothing.....it was quite boring.

today i mostly stayed in. I did venture out to grab a few things, but that was about it. lol tons of fun.

Tyler came over tho, we watched the end of LOTR, the first one. So much i forgot and some I remembered. Yay me! Now i want to watch the second on. I would also like to watch the Pirate Trilogy. I need those...or want...whatever.

I msged Kris today to see about hanging out this week. Cause he asked and I said sure. He didn't answer me. I msged him at 2, and just sent another msg. So far nothing. I would like to hang out, but if you're gonna make plans, then stick to them. I don't think that it's anything I did, unless it was asking about the comment, and if that's it then wtf? I was just needed an answer to the many questions running around in my head. I don't think he has a reason to be mad at me. I haven't done anything wrong.

This is the man I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. If I could go back a month and a half, or to the beginning of May, that would be good. That's when I started to worry. That's when I started wondering. I came across something totally by accident and it upset me. And then the next day I came upon something else that made me wonder. Then this stewed for about a week, before i approached him. Add a bunch of alcohol to that fire and you get our fun conversation. That was when I was first told he didn't love me, after a year of being together.

I would tell myself to just leave it alone..........but then what good would it do? He still wouldn't love me.

I don't know sometimes....there are many times when I want him back. I want my crazy, hockey obsessed boyfriend back. Then there are the few times when like now, when he doesn't answer, and I wonder do I really need to go through this. And the crappy thing about both of these things is that I still love him.

But til the day i either get over him, or he realizes that I'm the one, i have to live my life. I have plans this week with one of my best friends and then family stuff on the weekend....and I will have fun