so the last two days have been hard ones.

i've been out and about for both of them and it's just one certain thing that has everything come crashing down.

i miss my bestfriend. I miss that we don't talk twice everyday. I miss that i can't kiss him whenever I want. I miss that he's not here to cuddle up to. basically i miss everything.

yesterday was a great day. i hung out with Melissa & Connor. Connor and i spent some quality time together. it was nice. then later on Tara and I watched L.A ink and Big Brother. After that Tyler came over and we watched the Dark Knight. So i had many friends around me all day and it was great......but i still miss him.

I am supposed to attend a wedding in two weeks, and I'm still not sure. I want to be there for Jenn & Bryce, but the plan was to go with his Family (who I love as well as him), but just how hard would that be? and where would we stay and it goes on and on.....

I'm gonna stay busy this weekend....have a party tomorrow for Olivia and no plans for sunday yet, but hopefully something comes through. As for today I have housework and a bubble bath is calling me right now....

i hate this