So winter break is almost finished. it seemed to go way too fast for my liking. Not that I'm not missing my children, i just enjoy my time to do absolutely nothing. Mind you it hasn't really been the best break....too many things on my mind.
My mom is back in the hospital. We brought her back on the 23rd and has been there ever since and won't be coming home til sometime next week. I found out on Christmas eve that the cancer has spread, but not very much according to the Dr today. Still i had to take all this in and digest it.
I try not to think about it. That's how I'm dealing with this. If i don't think about her having this disease then its not there. I don't want to think about how skinny she is or how much pain she's in. However I had to think about it. Had to think about what I'm going to do when that day comes. Not something you want to think about on Christmas eve. She's looking better though. And she's going in for surgery next week, so hopefully that makes a big difference.
So while dealing with this, I also have another things going round inside my head. This due to a boy. I can't actually say when it all started, but it came to the surface about 2 weeks ago. He said some things that had me thinking. Now i have all these feelings and not sure what to do with them. I'm scared now that i have theses feeling he just going to walk away and I'll be stuck back where i was before. And I was the hesitant one.
