Wednesday night and here i sit. kinda tired so heading to bed after i write this. Another two days and then it's the weekend! Then next week I have another 4 day week. Yay!

Thanksgiving was alright. Mom was recovering from her surgery so she still wasn't feeling 100%. She wasn't able to eat all of her dinner, but was able to eat a little bit. She will be coming home from my Nana's tomorrow. I hate the fact that I can't do anything for her when she's in pain. I hate the fact that she has to go through this at all.

I'm excited for tomorrow...gonna get my hair cut and colored!! It's been awhile since I have had it professionally colored. Dark with light highlights. Short. Looking forward to catching up with Monica.

Family photos are this weekend and I desperately praying for sun on Saturday! I want outdoor shots and those are hard to do in the rain.....bah stupid rain!

I always wonder if I ever cross his mind. Does he ever think about me or miss me? Does he miss my laugh or my smile...

it's Friday night and im home by myself.
it's a little chilly in here so I am looking forward to curling up in a warm blanket.

my mom had her second surgery today and it went well. she's at my Nana's sleeping. I will be heading out there tomorrow to spend thanksgiving with my family.

so i am trying to think more positively lately....trying being the goal. I do have good days. The last couple have been ok. Tuesday was a grump day...it was three months that day.

i know it will get better in time, but that doesn't stop me from missing him everyday. i was debating all day long whether to send a msg. nothing crazy..just a simple i miss you or do you ever think of me....nothing too heavy....but didn't.....still thinking about it.

there are moments when i do get mad and i just don't understand why he didn't fall in love with me. if I was such a great girlfriend what did i do wrong?

it's been a while since i last updated this....well i've started two, but deleted them...hopefully this one gets posted.

we're in my favorite month....i love October....it makes me happy. Nice crisp clear fall days....add a cup of hot cider and i'm in heaven. Have a busy month...well at least the next two weekends. Woohoo Thanksgiving...mmm turkey. I love thanksgiving almost as much as I love Christmas. Then the weekend after that is Family Photos....hopefully it won't rain so we can take the pics outside....i checked the weather forcast tonight and it said rain, but that's two weeks away so hopefully it will change before then.

I have lots of work to do tomorrow. I did some today and was just working on my Activity plans...however it's been like 4 and a half years since i've done one and can't remember most things....hopefully i do ok.

Had a visit with Tasha & Olivia today. That was great. Had some Tacos and watched the Lion King...i still know pretty much every word of that movie...pretty sad ;)

As for other things....i'm still working on it. It will be three months soon....but I still need more time.