it's Saturday and I got woken up at twenty after eight by a weed whacker.....i hate my neighbor

I saw Harry Potter last night. It was good, but being a big fan of the books, i could easily pick out what's missing and what isn't in the book. However when Harry took the Felix potion, I was laughing pretty hard.

So Kris & I went for dinner and drinks before the show. It was different. I guess I saw him in a different light. I didn't see him as the man I am in love with. I saw him as a friend. It took me a long time to relax and after a couple drinks I kinda saw him like I have before. I guess I was waiting to see how the movie went. No one held my hand.

We didn't talk at all about us. I told him that I wouldn't be going to the wedding. And I am still trying to figure out if I want to go to Tofino. I want to go to Tofino, but there's just so much stuff. I did ask him about the comment. His reply was "well see how the future goes and what happens"

So now I have to figure this out. Do I want this? Or do I want something else? I'd rather spend my summer having fun and spending time with family & friends than being like this. Time waits for no one, so why should I?