it's august long weekend.....and what am I doing? Not much at all. I was originally supposed to go camping up at Jones Lake, but that fell through....

It's almost been a month.....on one hand it seemed to fly by, on the other it seemed to take a hundred years. I still haven't fully let go. I've wanted to. I guess you can say I'm on the fence about it. However these last few days have been pushing me. I sent him a msg on Wednesday evening and I'm still waiting to hear from him. I have no idea why he's doing this. I haven't done anything. That was the first msg i sent him in over a week. So i really don't get it. I don't want to think the worst of him, so I keep waiting...

I'm so tired of crying