Exhaustion

Just when I think I am doing ok, I get blind sided by sucker punch....and I'm down for the count.

First let me start by saying I am exhausted and on top of that is everything else. I didn't get that much sleep last night and it sucks.

I keep on trying to think positive and was doing good for a while. But this morning I woke up and was just having a sad day. It continued to be sad, even though i hid it really well. I'm not sure why it started off this way. I am supposed to start everyday with being grateful and thankful. Which I am. I guess it all started when I was laying in bed wondering if the actions I am taking are sending the Universe the wrong msg. Which I think I am. So got to work that out. Then later on more on the other girl.

I think it's amazing how much we can dislike someone without even knowing them. I still have no confirmation, but just a gut feeling. It blows that it hasn't even been two months yet. And I wonder if had even been one for him.

Today I was thinking about it. Wondering if I really wanted him back. Then I see this and i get all emotional. It sucks. I hate it.

I'm gonna start tomorrow off better. Say my thank yous and be grateful.

I am looking forward to Tuesday. One, cause i get to start my new class and am really looking forward to meeting my new little friends. & Two, because I have a wine date with Monica. I haven't seen her since before the breakup. And I miss her.

But this is where I leave you.